Sunday, October 24, 2010

wazzupp with titles and labels?

how do you distinguish a special friend from a special someone?
there's this guy, who LABELED me as he's special friend who said that
a special friend is a person who HE can talk to about anything...
while a "lover"(eeewww the word) is a person whom he could only talk to
about anything WITH "limits"...

I ask my cousin about it. She said, yeah sure a special someone is someone
you could talk to about things with limits, stuff which are guarded, controlled.
Huh? Oh, well, I figured when with you are with your someone, there's this
tendency to hide some-things, some insecurities perhaps which you might be
afraid someone would know and then not accept you. Am, i being incoherent, probably
how I say it or how I write it... Anyway, yeah sure, a special friend is somebody
you think has a bit of feelings for you, probably not in a romantic way but maybe
in a platonic type. Someone, you think even if you pour out your feelings and
hidden insecurities, this special friend would still accept you...

Ergo, a special friend is a fall back, a rebound, a reserve just-in-case....
I don't think being a special friend for someone is healthy, at least for me,
I mean ego-wise.

The guy i love is now the husband of my friend who i also love.
Theirs has been friendship turned to love which I think is genuine. No pretentions,
no hidden agenda, just pure-not-found in this part of the world kinda love.
Just typing the word love gives me chills. Just thinking about them makes me wonder,
if i could find that thing they have, from someone, someone who I haven't met yet...


1 comment:

Airesol said...

wow, thetet, what a dilemma. but love is living in a strange world sometimes and anything could happen in the air. if you marry your best friend and your true love then you have it made for you will have a good life, love-wise :) so keep on looking, he'll come if it's time and if it's meant to be...but best of all keep on praying and keep on hoping for prayer moves mountains and hope is a gift that is just about ready to be opened coming from God :)...