wazzupp with titles and labels?

how do you distinguish a special friend from a special someone?
there's this guy, who LABELED me as he's special friend who said that
a special friend is a person who HE can talk to about anything...
while a "lover"(eeewww the word) is a person whom he could only talk to
about anything WITH "limits"...

I ask my cousin about it. She said, yeah sure a special someone is someone
you could talk to about things with limits, stuff which are guarded, controlled.
Huh? Oh, well, I figured when with you are with your someone, there's this
tendency to hide some-things, some insecurities perhaps which you might be
afraid someone would know and then not accept you. Am, i being incoherent, probably
how I say it or how I write it... Anyway, yeah sure, a special friend is somebody
you think has a bit of feelings for you, probably not in a romantic way but maybe
in a platonic type. Someone, you think even if you pour out your feelings and
hidden insecurities, this special friend would still accept you...

Ergo, a special friend is a fall back, a rebound, a reserve just-in-case....
I don't think being a special friend for someone is healthy, at least for me,
I mean ego-wise.

The guy i love is now the husband of my friend who i also love.
Theirs has been friendship turned to love which I think is genuine. No pretentions,
no hidden agenda, just pure-not-found in this part of the world kinda love.
Just typing the word love gives me chills. Just thinking about them makes me wonder,
if i could find that thing they have, from someone, someone who I haven't met yet...