on self-pity.

self-pity
noun: pity for oneself; especially : a self-indulgent
dwelling on one's own sorrows or misfortunes
-- self-pity'ing (adj)
-- self-pity'ing'ly (adv)

Being sorry for myself is a luxury I can't afford.
- Stephen King

Every man supposes himself not to be fully understood or appreciated.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in this world.
- Helen Keller

What poison is to food, self-pity is to life.
- Oliver C. Wilson

There is only one way to end a self-pity cycle: stop comparing yourself to others, and simply follow Christ.
- Linda Harry

Optimism and self-pity are the positive and negative poles of modern cowardice.
- Cyril Connolly

Self-pity is a death that has no resurrection, a sinkhole from which no rescuing hand can drag you because you have chosen to sink.
- Elizabeth Elliot

Never give way to melancholy; resist it steadily, for the habit will encroach.
- Sydney Smith

...Stop comparing yourself to others. Resist melancholy. Do not ever yield to it. Have faith.
Haaayyyayyayyy! The things you do and think when you've got sore eyes.
God please help me see THE light. *wink*

A minute.

Been to a wedding, last week of June at Tagaytay.
I don't know how to put it...it was a blast?!

I've never been to a wedding before, I was really anxious.
I had a rough time thinking on how to avoid it.
Next thing I knew, I was cramming to find a formal dress!
Sure I said I would go.
But, I never really thought I would be going to any, nor did I thought
I would be going to their wedding...
Although, I knew it was coming,
I knew it will eventually go there, that is, they will be THE One
for each other, just the thought of it then makes my chest hurt.

I know it's silly. I am silly and stupid, who am I to even be affected
in that kind of way. I wasn't the ex of the groom.
They're my friends, my close friends.
If there is anything I should feel,
it should be nothing but happiness for them.
They deserve it, nonetheless. They're good and kind spirited person.
There were times when I feel that I don't deserve being their friends.
For all the mistakes and wrongs, I must've done something good,
to at least deserve their friendship...
One good thing that lead me to their path... I'm still wondering what it is....

I just envy her.
I wish then and until now, I would at least be her for just
a minute. The very pretty, feminine, witty, funny adorable her, with him.

Even for just a minute.

I don't know what I'd give for that minute.
In that beautiful long white wedding gown, walking in the aisle, towards him,
squeezing his hands, kissing him, being with him...
For just a minute of that... I can't think of anything better...